Uzun zamand\u0131r yazmam gerekti\u011fine inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir lise hat\u0131ram var. O olay\u0131n akl\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fil \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc karakterimin kendine y\u00f6n \u00e7izdi\u011fi anlardan biridir. Topu topu 15 dakika s\u00fcrd\u00fc ama hi\u00e7bir zaman unutamad\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A\u011fr\u0131’da k\u0131\u015f Ekim ay\u0131 gibi ba\u015flard\u0131; ortaokul ve lisenin 6 y\u0131l\u0131 boyunca, 29 Ekim merasimi ve 10 Kas\u0131m anma g\u00fcn\u00fc en \u00e7ok \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz ve en \u00e7ok yoruldu\u011fumuz g\u00fcnler olurdu. Bir sonraki bayram 23 Nisan ama lise \u00f6\u011frencilerini pek tutmazlard\u0131. 19 May\u0131s’da \u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fck ama az\u0131c\u0131k g\u00fcne\u015f var hi\u00e7 olmazsa diye sevinir, dayan\u0131rd\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
10 Kas\u0131m genellikle okul i\u00e7inde bir anma olay\u0131 olarak ge\u00e7erdi. Sadece birka\u00e7 saat s\u00fcrerdi. Yine de kalorifersiz buz gibi salonda ayakta saatlerce beklemek ger\u00e7ekten zor gelirdi; elimizden geldi\u011fi kadar dayanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Benim ailemin ekonomik durumu relatif olarak daha iyiydi; ceketime ilaveten s\u00fcveterim, g\u00f6mle\u011fim, i\u00e7 g\u00f6mle\u011fim ve fanilam olurdu ama b\u00fct\u00fcn bu katlara ra\u011fmen o so\u011fukta ayakta durmaktan bitap d\u00fc\u015ferdim. Arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131nda bir tek g\u00f6mlek ve ince ceketle okula gidip gelenler olurdu; fakirli\u011fin g\u00f6z\u00fc k\u00f6r olsun diyece\u011fim. Ancak, m\u00fcd\u00fcr ve \u00f6\u011fretmenlerin kuralc\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve sertli\u011fi \u00f6zellikle bu arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 daha \u00e7ok \u00fc\u015f\u00fct\u00fcr ve daha \u00e7ok yorard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu t\u00f6renlerden sonuncusunda (lise sondayd\u0131k art\u0131k) bir arkada\u015f\u0131m t\u00f6renin verdi\u011fi stres, \u00fc\u015f\u00fcmenin verdi\u011fi hareket etme ihtiyac\u0131 veya benzeri bir nedenle yan\u0131ndaki arkada\u015fla sessizce \u015fakala\u015fm\u0131\u015f, az\u0131c\u0131k hareket etmi\u015f ve \u00e7ok az duyulacak bir \u015fekilde g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bir \u00f6\u011fretmenin bunu farketti\u011fini ve benden bir s\u0131ra geride duran bu \u00f6\u011frenciye do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 da yazay\u0131m, kay\u0131t tamamlans\u0131n: Kemal Kaya. Her g\u00fcn A\u011fr\u0131’n\u0131n -20 derece kar\u0131nda k\u0131\u015f\u0131nda okula bir ceket, bir g\u00f6mlek ve bir atk\u0131 ile gelen, fukara bir ailenin 8 yada 10 \u00e7ocu\u011fundan biri olan Kemal Kaya.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00d6\u011fretmen yabanc\u0131yd\u0131, yani A\u011fr\u0131l\u0131 bir \u00f6\u011fretmen de\u011fildi. Bunu s\u00f6ylemek laz\u0131m \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc A\u011fr\u0131l\u0131 bir \u00f6\u011fretmen \u00f6\u011frencilerin halini sezerdi, bilirdi ve anlard\u0131. B\u00f6yle hoyrat\u00e7a davran\u0131\u015flara kalk\u0131\u015fmazlard\u0131. A\u011fr\u0131 d\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan, \u00f6zellikle T\u00fcrkiye’nin orta veya bat\u0131 b\u00f6lgesinden gelen ufak tefek biriydi diye hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. Ad\u0131n\u0131 hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum; bug\u00fcn hat\u0131rlasam yine unutmak isterim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu \u00f6\u011fretmen Kemal Kaya’ya yakla\u015f\u0131p kuvvetli bir sille vurdu. Kemal Kaya’n\u0131n sillenin etkisiyle yere d\u00fc\u015fece\u011fini sand\u0131m; ama d\u00fc\u015fmedi. \u00d6\u011fretmen daha kuvvetli bir sille vurdu. Kemal Kaya bir sut\u00fcn gibi yerinden bile k\u0131p\u0131rdamad\u0131. \u00d6\u011fretmen her sikkesinde Kemal Kaya salland\u0131 ama ayakta durdu. San\u0131r\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc toplad\u0131 ve kendisine yap\u0131lan bu haks\u0131zl\u0131k kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dik durmaya karar verdi. \u00d6\u011fretmen nerdeyse 10 belki de 15 defa Kemal Kaya’ya silleler ve yumruklarla vurdu. Kemal Kaya d\u00fc\u015fmedi ama burnundan kanlar f\u0131\u015fk\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131; y\u00fcz\u00fcne, ceketine, g\u00f6mle\u011fine, yerlere kocaman kan damlalar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00d6\u011fretmen devam etseydi, s\u0131n\u0131f\u0131m\u0131zdan birka\u00e7 \u00f6\u011frenci e\u011fitim hayatlar\u0131n\u0131 feda edip \u00f6\u011fretmeni d\u00f6verlermiydi diye hala d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Ancak ba\u015fka bir \u00f6\u011fretmen m\u00fcdahale etti. Sald\u0131rgan \u00f6\u011fretmeni geri \u00e7ekti; iki \u00f6\u011frenciye Kemal Kaya’y\u0131 lavaboya g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcn dedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u00fcd\u00fcr de t\u00f6reni k\u0131sa kesip hepimizi azad etti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Evet ben sizi iyi biliyorum.
Bana kendinizi anlat\u0131p, yorulmay\u0131n.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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